Can you imagine how that feels? ALL of your needs are being met.
We live in a culture of lack and scarcity. From the very beginning we are taught that there is not enough of anything. Not enough food, not enough time, not enough money, not enough love, not enough freedom, not enough happiness….whatever it is...there is certainly not enough of it.
I’m talking about a pattern of belief that runs so deep our every action, choice, thought and emotion is connected to it. And with that belief then comes self-pity and victimhood, and it’s a dark and lonely place often filled with anger and resentment. And it’s a vicious cycle too. We are most certainly powerful creators. Our actions, choices, thoughts and emotions are pure energy which the universe magnifies and enhances and reflects back at us...in this case a perfect self-fulfilling prophecy of scarcity and lack. And of course, it is scary, and fear keeps us small and unempowered and unable to see the truth.
I know this because I have lived this. I live this. I also know that all the striving, and all the hard work in the world, all the self-sacrifice and giving, is not going to get you anywhere if you don’t believe from the bottom of your heart that you are worth it and that you are being fully supported in all ways. This is the part I struggle with.
I deeply believe that all of our experiences have medicine in them. Of course “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” but it is so much more than that. I think it is about the strength that comes with growth in understanding, forgiveness and self-compassion, rather than just overcoming adversity. It is about the strength it takes to soften, open and receive rather than to overpower. It is about the faith and hope and courage it takes to realize you are not a victim in all this and instead that you are an all-powerful creator creating the experiences you need to heal, to become whole and to remember who you truly are.
And so Columbine, with the visual weight and mass of her leaves, reminds me that I am firmly grounded and a part of the physical world, but her flowers, reaching up high above the foliage on airy stems, remind me to reach up and connect with my higher power, with all that is and my own highest purpose. She bends and sways in the breeze, like she is dancing, not struggling or resisting, but flexible and open to the environment she is planted in. Fully present and supported by the earth but always connected to source. Of the earth, but also of the heavens...body and spirit. This, to me, embodies the true meaning of abundance. That feeling that you are connected and secure that all is well no matter what the weather.
It is so easy to get lost in the physicality and mundane reality of our lives. Lost in the worry of how the bills will be paid, how we will handle a difficult relationship, or overcome adversity, or find the time to get done all that needs doing, and countless other hardships of our everyday existence. We put our heads down and fight against the current, and the storms that test us, rather than relaxing and opening and going with the flow. And even though I can see this, deeply understand it even, I still do it...and then wonder why my head hurts so much so often!
And so, after a lifetime of striving and self-pity, Columbine is working her magic into my awareness. I keep returning to her asking me to trust, to let go of all the blocks and programing and beliefs that I now know are preventing me from receiving all the love, happiness, peace, support and yes money, that the universe has flowing towards me and us all. And simultaneously, I am trying hard to let go of my expectations, for there are many. That doesn’t mean that I give up on my dreams, it just means that I don’t know what the universe has in store for me. What I do know though is that whatever comes my way is exactly what I need to grow, to become whole, and to fully embody my journey in this lifetime. And whatever that is I have, or will be given, the tools to support my growth. Abundance.
Columbine can be found in my Soulflower Plant Spirit Oracle.
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